March 26, 2008 : : -
August 6, 2007 : : added in oct 07 but really from aug 07
October 21, 2006 : : finally an update
August 31, 2004 : : Changes... oh how I loathe them.
August 23, 2004 : : life sucks and then you die
July 20, 2004 : : "i measure every grief i meet..."
July 11, 2004 : : back from Dallas, lots to report
Rader Entries : : entry from inpatient, May 22
Rader Entries : : entries from inpatient, May 18-21
Rader Entries : : entries from inpatient, May 4-14
Rader Entries : : entries from inpatient, April 24-25
Rader Entries : : entries from inpatient, April 20-23
June 10, 2004 : : Going back to Rader
May 26, 2004 : : back from Rader
April 20, 2004 : : just more nervousness about leaving...
April 19, 2004 : : anxious but hopeful about leaving
April 17, 2004 : : new admit date for Rader
April 14, 2004 : : I think I've made up my mind about Rader...
April 05, 2004 : : my mom saw my burns
March 301, 2004 : : Rogers rejected me, now what?
March 27, 2004 : : i wish he were dead.
: : ever wonder who these people I mention in my diary are?
March 22, 2004 : : -
March 19, 2004 : : alive but not well, i'm sorry it's been so long
January 04, 2004 : : very long update
December 11, 2003 : : first day of day treatment
November 26, 2003 : : apologies
November 03, 2003 : : I'm going back to Rogers for IP...
October 23, 2003 : : I've got a plan I think...
October 22, 2003 : : I discharged myself AMA today...
October 15, 2003 : : Update On Ruth
October 15, 2003 : : at Rogers
September 28, 2003 : : leaving for Rogers
September 22, 2003 : : er visit + rogers has a bed...
September 15, 2003 : : cutting again
September 13, 2003 : : can we say "abandonment issues"?
September 10, 2003 : : loneliness
September 03, 2003 : : letter from brian + purging effects :/
September 01, 2003 : : -
August 26, 2003 : : residential blah blah blah i hate my mom
August 11, 2003 : : thoughts on WHY
August 09, 2003 : : -
July 18, 2003 : : more hospital journal
July 19, 2003 : : my stay in the loony bin
July 17, 2003 : : -
July 15, 2003 : : -
July 12, 2003 : : guestbook signers please read!
July 12, 2003 : : toothaches and weigh-ins
July 06, 2003 : : nineteen today
June 12, 2003 : : -
June 07, 2003 : : too tired to move + pix
June 05, 2003 : : -
June 04, 2003 : : to gain or not to gain...
May 31, 2003 : : grocery store stalker
May 30, 2003 : : surveys
May 30, 2003 : : quizzes
May 27, 2003 : : My friend Mia
May 26, 2003 : : decisions... my future...?
May 25, 2003 : : long overdue update
May 19, 2003 : : going to the hospital
May 08, 2003 : : this feels unreal
May 04, 2003 : : perfect illusions
April 30, 2003 : : when everything is clearly dying
April 29, 2003 : : osteoporosis
April 27, 2003 : : going bald at 18
April 26, 2003 : : looking ahead
April 23, 2003 : : short update
April 02, 2003 : : untitled
April 02, 2003 : : fucking weigh-ins!
March 28, 2003 : : I don't *really* have an ED...
March 27, 2003 : : my therapist looks anorexic
March 24, 2003 : : pathetic
March 23, 2003 : : shame
March 20, 2003 : : just my bitching
March 20, 2003 : : entry from skiing III
March 19, 2003 : : entry from skiing II
March 18, 2003 : : entry from skiing
March 17, 2003 : : early morning rambling
March 15, 2003 : : untitled
March 14, 2003 : : slowly going insane
March 10, 2003 : : epsom salt excitement [oh dear]
March 07, 2003 : : group dynamics
February 27, 2003 : : update
February 18, 2003 : : i don't like raisins.
: : diaryrings
February 16, 2003 : : chest pains :/
February 15, 2003 : : father figures
February 12, 2003 : : untitled
February 3, 2003 : : meet the crazies
January 30, 2003 : : doctor appt.
January 30, 2003 : : unsure
January 26, 2003 : : it's a mad world
January 26, 2003 : : cuddle & a kiss
December 24, 2002 : : christmas eve?
December 23, 2002 : : and she falls...
december 06, 2002 : : horrible dream
december 05, 2002 : : i hate stairs!
december 04, 2002 : : dreaming...
december 01, 2002 : : home again.
november 25, 2002 : : decisions...
november 22, 2002 : : hospital?
november 22, 2002 : : + invasion of privacy +
november 05, 2002 : : slipping again...
october 31, 2002 : : happy halloween!
october 30, 2002 : : general health/mindset update
october 28, 2002 : : ...
Tuesday, Sept. 24, 2002 : : still doing bad
friday, september 13, 2002 : : please don't look at me...
thursday, september 12, 2002 : : [slipping]
sunday, september 8, 2002 : : such a simple need