then there was another girl, whose name i forget, who was also bulimic. she also seemed to be pretty much recovered... she hadn't purged in 3 months. she is 14 or 15. apparently she restricts now and then. girl #3 is... interesting. i don't know what ED she has and frankly neither does deirdre [she told me about her before i came to the group, during my "interview"]. i guess she is classified ED-NOS. she stopped eating fruits and vegetables when she was really young, like 5 years old. she ate everything else, just not fruits & veggies. so she never had a problem with being underweight [actually she looks overweight], just that she didn't get enough vitamins and such. no one really saw this as a serious problem so it persisted [she is now a teenager, i forget her age]. when she started to go blind recently [her eye sight is getting worse and worse and the doctors say she will be blind eventually if she doesn't start eating better] she "finally accepted" [deirdre's words] that this was a problem, and thus started coming to group. but if you ask me she doesn't want to be there. at all. you had to practically beat 2 sentences out of her! and she acted like "this is so stupid" kind of... you know? like "you're all lame, this is lame, i don't want to be here" sort of thing. anyho, that's girl #3. i don't know WHY she won't eat the fruits and veggies. i tried to find this out but like i said she wasn't very talkative. as far as i can tell, she just doesn't like the taste of them. which is hard for me to fathom since i love fruits and veggies, but i guess "to eat her own"?

15 minutes into the group, the other new girl showed up. her name is danielle [yay! i remembered a name!] and she is 18. she moved here from ohio [i think really recently] and she is bulimic/anorexic. she seemed like the only girl i could really relate to. she is really nice. and god, she is BEAUTIFUL. she looks like she hs part hawaiian. it's hard to guess ethnic backgrounds most of the time but i'm too shy to ask. but anyways, really pretty. when we were talking about families i learned that her mom is a gourmet chef. god, that would be tough! i mean her mom doesn't just cook dinner every night [that would be hard enough for me]... she's a fucking CHEF! and danielle says she is constantly trying out recipes, etc. her whole family is food-obsessed. we talked about that in group - EDs being hereditary. everyone in the group had mom's and/or dads who had "eating issues" or were weird with food or overweight or whatever. granted, there's only 5 of us. but still, every single girl had a mom who either has an ED or had one [including me in case you didn't know].

i have to admit it wasn't really what i expected. and i was a little disappointed especially at the size of the group. but it was still pretty nice. it's an hour and a half which i like. an hour seems too short when you're with a group of people. i think next week will be better though, because there will be 6 of us instead of 5. i think the girl coming is someone who has been in the group before but hasn't been in awhile. oh well i'll soon find out :)